I'm such a coward.

[lance_sibley]

Last night was a mediocre bowling night for me: 146, 166, 164. A tiny bit below my average, but not terribly so. We were short a bowler (I haven't been able to reach cuteteenboy in a few days, so I don't know what happened to him), and the other team had a huge handicap advantage (over 100 pins), so we ended up losing all three games.

At one point, I was talking to Peeter, who is a former teammate from about four years ago (we were bowling against his team), and I had just mentioned my interest in John when I became aware that John was walking toward us. I muttered to Peeter, "Don't look now, but here he comes." He stopped, rubbed my back for a second (!!!!!) and said, "So, how are you doing tonight?" Tonight, while talking to marah_sk about it, she said that I should have responded, "Much better now." Damn, why can't I think of things like that to say? I can flirt up a storm when it doesn't actually matter... why do I get tongue-tied, and why does my brain shut down, when I'm really interested in someone? *sporks self in the cowardice - that's just below the medulla oblongata*

This afternoon, I had a meeting with a headhunter. This was the same company that I interviewed with about a month ago, but that particular person has left the company and someone else is taking over her files, so she wanted to meet me. She had another opening for a senior programmer/analyst with my skill set, so she said she would submit me. The position is slightly less senior than my last two jobs, but I'm not going to be fussy about a title when they'd be paying me roughly the same.

I told the headhunter that I had interviewed on Tuesday for a contract position, and so it would be best if she could expedite things with this other company. My preference would be for a full-time position rather than contract, but if the offer for the contract comes through first, I don't want to leave them hanging while I wait for the full-time position, especially since the interview was arranged through Mario. I'm sure he'd understand if I opted for this other one if I were to get offers for both, but I don't want to sit around waiting and lose out altogether, either. Of course, the whole thing is theoretical right now as I haven't gotten offers from either (heck, I haven't even gotten an interview for the full-time position yet), but I'm feeling confident.

Mario told me last night that I should call the HR person whose name he had given me today to see if I could get some feedback on Tuesday's interview; unfortunately, with being out this afternoon, by the time I got home it was too late to call. I must try to remember to do that tomorrow, before heading out to Ad Astra. Heck, I must remember to pack for Ad Astra.

Speaking of which, this evening, there was an Ad Astra pre-party. The TT Board of Directors (and presumably the Anime North Board as well) were invited, but as far as I could tell, I was the only one who showed up. It was a nice, relaxing evening - while there were, as usual, many conversations involving past cons, we also talked a fair bit about non-fannish things. Many of us observed that local fandom is becoming very inbred, so to speak; there are lots of people who are working on multiple conventions simultaneously. I'm starting to think that we need more new blood before we all burn out in the next three to five years or so.

Edited to add: While I was standing near the door at one point, somebody I know walked in. I said hello, we hugged, and then he said, "There's a rumour going around that you and I might be getting together this weekend." Um... what? I didn't even know he swung that way... I have no objection in principle (I'm such a slut-wannabe) but I'd like to know who's starting these rumours...

The Penneys gave me a ride home afterwards, as they were also giving a ride to a guy who lives about a ten minute drive from my place. I'd noticed him earlier for two reasons: one, he's about six-foot-six and probably weighs less than me (and I'm not particularly large), and two, he was someone I didn't know. (See? I don't know everyone in fandom.) Note to self: find out where he's from. Talking to him in the car on the ride home, I found that he has a rather attractive accent, but I couldn't quite place it. It was an English-type accent, but it didn't sound English or Australian - it was sort of somewhere between the two. He might originally have come from one or the other, but has lived in Canada for a while.

I may go to bed earlyish (for me) tonight - I'm feeling rather sleepy right now. I only had two drinks tonight, so it's not the alcohol. And I got about nine hours of sleep last night. I figure all that running around today wore me out.

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[boywhocantsayno.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I should have called on Thursday or Friday to follow up on the contract interview, but I had that other meeting on Thursday that wiped out my afternoon and then Friday, I had to get ready to go to Ad Astra. I must try to call this afternoon...

A collie at a sheep, you say? Yikes. I'd better do what I can to head that off. ;)