I'm such a coward.
Mar. 31st, 2006 01:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lance_sibleyLast night was a mediocre bowling night for me: 146, 166, 164. A tiny bit below my average, but not terribly so. We were short a bowler (I haven't been able to reach ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
cuteteenboy in a few days, so I don't know what happened to him), and the other team had a huge handicap advantage (over 100 pins), so we ended up losing all three games.
At one point, I was talking to Peeter, who is a former teammate from about four years ago (we were bowling against his team), and I had just mentioned my interest in John when I became aware that John was walking toward us. I muttered to Peeter, "Don't look now, but here he comes." He stopped, rubbed my back for a second (!!!!!) and said, "So, how are you doing tonight?" Tonight, while talking tomarah_sk about it, she said that I should have responded, "Much better now." Damn, why can't I think of things like that to say? I can flirt up a storm when it doesn't actually matter... why do I get tongue-tied, and why does my brain shut down, when I'm really interested in someone? *sporks self in the cowardice - that's just below the medulla oblongata*
This afternoon, I had a meeting with a headhunter. This was the same company that I interviewed with about a month ago, but that particular person has left the company and someone else is taking over her files, so she wanted to meet me. She had another opening for a senior programmer/analyst with my skill set, so she said she would submit me. The position is slightly less senior than my last two jobs, but I'm not going to be fussy about a title when they'd be paying me roughly the same.
I told the headhunter that I had interviewed on Tuesday for a contract position, and so it would be best if she could expedite things with this other company. My preference would be for a full-time position rather than contract, but if the offer for the contract comes through first, I don't want to leave them hanging while I wait for the full-time position, especially since the interview was arranged through Mario. I'm sure he'd understand if I opted for this other one if I were to get offers for both, but I don't want to sit around waiting and lose out altogether, either. Of course, the whole thing is theoretical right now as I haven't gotten offers from either (heck, I haven't even gotten an interview for the full-time position yet), but I'm feeling confident.
Mario told me last night that I should call the HR person whose name he had given me today to see if I could get some feedback on Tuesday's interview; unfortunately, with being out this afternoon, by the time I got home it was too late to call. I must try to remember to do that tomorrow, before heading out to Ad Astra. Heck, I must remember to pack for Ad Astra.
Speaking of which, this evening, there was an Ad Astra pre-party. The TT Board of Directors (and presumably the Anime North Board as well) were invited, but as far as I could tell, I was the only one who showed up. It was a nice, relaxing evening - while there were, as usual, many conversations involving past cons, we also talked a fair bit about non-fannish things. Many of us observed that local fandom is becoming very inbred, so to speak; there are lots of people who are working on multiple conventions simultaneously. I'm starting to think that we need more new blood before we all burn out in the next three to five years or so.
Edited to add: While I was standing near the door at one point, somebody I know walked in. I said hello, we hugged, and then he said, "There's a rumour going around that you and I might be getting together this weekend." Um... what? I didn't even know he swung that way... I have no objection in principle (I'm such a slut-wannabe) but I'd like to know who's starting these rumours...
The Penneys gave me a ride home afterwards, as they were also giving a ride to a guy who lives about a ten minute drive from my place. I'd noticed him earlier for two reasons: one, he's about six-foot-six and probably weighs less than me (and I'm not particularly large), and two, he was someone I didn't know. (See? I don't know everyone in fandom.) Note to self: find out where he's from. Talking to him in the car on the ride home, I found that he has a rather attractive accent, but I couldn't quite place it. It was an English-type accent, but it didn't sound English or Australian - it was sort of somewhere between the two. He might originally have come from one or the other, but has lived in Canada for a while.
I may go to bed earlyish (for me) tonight - I'm feeling rather sleepy right now. I only had two drinks tonight, so it's not the alcohol. And I got about nine hours of sleep last night. I figure all that running around today wore me out.
cuteteenboy in a few days, so I don't know what happened to him), and the other team had a huge handicap advantage (over 100 pins), so we ended up losing all three games.At one point, I was talking to Peeter, who is a former teammate from about four years ago (we were bowling against his team), and I had just mentioned my interest in John when I became aware that John was walking toward us. I muttered to Peeter, "Don't look now, but here he comes." He stopped, rubbed my back for a second (!!!!!) and said, "So, how are you doing tonight?" Tonight, while talking to
marah_sk about it, she said that I should have responded, "Much better now." Damn, why can't I think of things like that to say? I can flirt up a storm when it doesn't actually matter... why do I get tongue-tied, and why does my brain shut down, when I'm really interested in someone? *sporks self in the cowardice - that's just below the medulla oblongata*This afternoon, I had a meeting with a headhunter. This was the same company that I interviewed with about a month ago, but that particular person has left the company and someone else is taking over her files, so she wanted to meet me. She had another opening for a senior programmer/analyst with my skill set, so she said she would submit me. The position is slightly less senior than my last two jobs, but I'm not going to be fussy about a title when they'd be paying me roughly the same.
I told the headhunter that I had interviewed on Tuesday for a contract position, and so it would be best if she could expedite things with this other company. My preference would be for a full-time position rather than contract, but if the offer for the contract comes through first, I don't want to leave them hanging while I wait for the full-time position, especially since the interview was arranged through Mario. I'm sure he'd understand if I opted for this other one if I were to get offers for both, but I don't want to sit around waiting and lose out altogether, either. Of course, the whole thing is theoretical right now as I haven't gotten offers from either (heck, I haven't even gotten an interview for the full-time position yet), but I'm feeling confident.
Mario told me last night that I should call the HR person whose name he had given me today to see if I could get some feedback on Tuesday's interview; unfortunately, with being out this afternoon, by the time I got home it was too late to call. I must try to remember to do that tomorrow, before heading out to Ad Astra. Heck, I must remember to pack for Ad Astra.
Speaking of which, this evening, there was an Ad Astra pre-party. The TT Board of Directors (and presumably the Anime North Board as well) were invited, but as far as I could tell, I was the only one who showed up. It was a nice, relaxing evening - while there were, as usual, many conversations involving past cons, we also talked a fair bit about non-fannish things. Many of us observed that local fandom is becoming very inbred, so to speak; there are lots of people who are working on multiple conventions simultaneously. I'm starting to think that we need more new blood before we all burn out in the next three to five years or so.
Edited to add: While I was standing near the door at one point, somebody I know walked in. I said hello, we hugged, and then he said, "There's a rumour going around that you and I might be getting together this weekend." Um... what? I didn't even know he swung that way... I have no objection in principle (I'm such a slut-wannabe) but I'd like to know who's starting these rumours...
The Penneys gave me a ride home afterwards, as they were also giving a ride to a guy who lives about a ten minute drive from my place. I'd noticed him earlier for two reasons: one, he's about six-foot-six and probably weighs less than me (and I'm not particularly large), and two, he was someone I didn't know. (See? I don't know everyone in fandom.) Note to self: find out where he's from. Talking to him in the car on the ride home, I found that he has a rather attractive accent, but I couldn't quite place it. It was an English-type accent, but it didn't sound English or Australian - it was sort of somewhere between the two. He might originally have come from one or the other, but has lived in Canada for a while.
I may go to bed earlyish (for me) tonight - I'm feeling rather sleepy right now. I only had two drinks tonight, so it's not the alcohol. And I got about nine hours of sleep last night. I figure all that running around today wore me out.
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Date: 2006-03-31 05:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-03 09:54 am (UTC)I didn't get a chance to talk to him all weekend, unfortunately. We were stuck at our respective tables.
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Date: 2006-03-31 05:53 am (UTC)I really have to stop quickly scanning my friends' list. I first read this as "we shot a bowler" and thought "wow, that team is really compeditive."
See you tonight.
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Date: 2006-04-03 09:55 am (UTC)It was great hanging out with you - I'm glad we got a chance to do so.
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Date: 2006-04-03 09:57 am (UTC)A collie at a sheep, you say? Yikes. I'd better do what I can to head that off. ;)
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Date: 2006-03-31 12:38 pm (UTC)You and I are in the same boat, brother. Good thing I have Oscar!
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Date: 2006-04-03 09:58 am (UTC)I think it's fairly common. I envy guys who can just go after what they want without worrying about rejection or looking like an idiot.
You and I are in the same boat, brother. Good thing I have Oscar!
The one good thing about having someone is that you no longer have to worry about looking like an idiot. They'll love you no matter what. :)
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Date: 2006-04-03 12:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-03 12:50 pm (UTC)He may have said he prefers his men on the squishy side, but that doesn't mean he'd change his mind about you if you weren't. He doesn't strike me as being that superficial. :)
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Date: 2006-04-03 10:00 am (UTC)So what happened to you, anyway? I must have called five times. You know the playoffs start this week, right? You have to be there, no matter what.
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Date: 2006-04-02 09:30 pm (UTC)Working on lots of conventions is a Good Thing. Working on each other's conventions is even better.
Working on (and worse, attending) only local cons leads to local fandom becoming inbred.
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Date: 2006-04-03 10:03 am (UTC)Don't you ever get tired and want a break, though? ;)
I agree, working together to help each other out is a very good thing. I would just like to see more new blood, because (let's face facts) we're not getting any younger.
Working on (and worse, attending) only local cons leads to local fandom becoming inbred.
True, though that wasn't what I was trying to say. Perhaps "inbred" wasn't the word I wanted - "incestuous" might be closer. Then again, incest leads to inbreeding...
That being said, the Montreal bid is trying to recruit me. I had already said that I would advise where requested, but I think they want more out of me... Rene and Terry were both hitting me up to join the bid committee this weekend.
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Date: 2006-04-04 11:38 pm (UTC)A what, now? :)
I get breaks. Writing restaurant guides is a break from running Ops, which is a break from throwing bid parties...
True, though that wasn't what I was trying to say. Perhaps "inbred" wasn't the word I wanted - "incestuous" might be closer. Then again, incest leads to inbreeding...
I'm not seeing the difference...
That being said, the Montreal bid is trying to recruit me. I had already said that I would advise where requested, but I think they want more out of me... Rene and Terry were both hitting me up to join the bid committee this weekend.
No comment.
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Date: 2006-04-03 08:34 am (UTC)Heh. That's almost a reflex for me. None of my friends are in doubt about how I feel about them.
I'm starting to think that we need more new blood before we all burn out in the next three to five years or so.
I have no plans to burn out, though anybody can be pushed out. We do need new blood. Though I think we need old blood as well; one of the big problems fandom has is that we don't know how to hang onto good people, so we keep having to find more.
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Date: 2006-04-03 10:12 am (UTC)Oh, I don't have that problem with friends who are just friends - it's friends with whom I'd like to become romantically involved that leave me tongue-tied.
I have no plans to burn out
Who does?
though anybody can be pushed out. We do need new blood. Though I think we need old blood as well; one of the big problems fandom has is that we don't know how to hang onto good people, so we keep having to find more.
I think that our core group is pretty good, and isn't going anywhere. There are a lot of people who come in for a few years and move on to other things, though, or who find that it's a lot more work than they had originally envisioned and become tired. Those are the ones that we need to work to keep.
Alternatively, there are those who become disillusioned with the politicking and give up because it gets to be more than just a hobby. (FIAWOL notwithstanding. :) ) I can understand that point of view; in fact, I loathe the politicking that goes on, and the backstabbing that takes place. It kept me out of fandom (beyond attending one or two cons a year) for 12 years.